On my birthday I felt a nudge to take a pregnancy test

On my birthday I felt a nudge to take a pregnancy test, I took 3, then 3 more just to be sure. 6 positive pregnancy tests! We were expecting our second baby! I hijacked my husband birthday dessert to me and the waiter was pumped and on board. This baby was loved and celebrated by us and strangers. From the moment we learned about our second baby there was excitement and love. We started planning, dreaming, even told our young toddler. I started feeling the familiar pregnancy symptoms but then one day the symptoms vanished it seemed. Then there was a negative pee test at the appt I had scheduled. They said it might be hcg levels so we rescheduled. But then the bleeding started the next evening. Then a lot the day after that. My heart broke, we were only about 5 weeks along. It seems like such a short time that feels like it will imprint my heart forever. I wish there was a way to know how yo heal and move forward in a healthy way.