I’ve been with my partner for almost 3 years

I’ve been with my partner for almost 3 years, & we found out I was pregnant march 6th 2023. He has a son, but I don’t have any children. We weren’t planning on it, but we were excited & saw this as a blessing. We started talking about names, childcare & how we were going to navigate our lives. We were so happy though. On march 21st, I started bleeding down there so I went to the ER (my partner was there). On the ultrasound they saw a gestational sac but no yolk sac nor embryo could be seen, so they told me to come back in 2 days. The bleeding continued, but with tissue. I cried for hours & even threw up because of all the crying. I went back to the ER & they still only saw the gestational sac, but my pregnancy hormones for the blood test were declining. They pulled out a large piece of tissue during the pelvic exam (my partner was there too). The sac & placenta came out of me the next day. 2 days later my partner & I went back to ER; the pregnancy hormones continue to decline & this time they don’t see anything during the ultrasound or pelvic exam (they said I had most likely passed it). This experience has scarred me forever. I didn’t even want children most of my life. I changed my mind, wanted a child & then I miscarry. I feel like this is god telling me I am not meant to have children.