Miscarriage combined with infertility

Miscarriage combined with infertility. It took us six months to conceive our first child naturally in 2021. We decided to try for a second in 2023. 6 months after trying, we got pregnant and had a missed miscarriage at eight weeks. It was during the first ultrasound after we had come back from a family vacation (where I was very careful trying not to do anything to disturb the pregnancy). I had been very confused as to why I didn’t feel super pregnant. Then at the ultrasound, the baby had no heartbeat and was measuring two weeks behind. It took us six more months to get into a fertility clinic. We spent all of 2024 doing medicated cycles and tracking everything religiously. Our clinic made us take a break in 2025 and we managed to conceive three months into the break naturally. It felt like it was meant to be after all the treatments before had failed. We did not take any positive test for granted since we had seen so few. it had been almost 2 years since my last “positive” test. I found out the next day that my best friend was also pregnant and due around the time I would be due. I was so nervous for the first ultrasound that I had a panic attack that morning. Once I calmed my mindset, we ended up having a pretty normal first ultrasound at seven weeks with a heartbeat and growth that was four days behind. But I immediately started spotting after the appointment and blamed it on the transvaginal ultrasound. During dinner I passed a couple small clots. My family said it could be normal. I continued to very lightly spot throughout the night and noticed a tightness in my stomach. There was no pain like with my previous miscarriage, and I thought there was no way things would be failing when we had seen a heartbeat only a few hours earlier. The doctor checked my bleeding and said it was a threatened miscarriage, but it continue to slowly spot throughout the rest of the week. I went back in for an ultrasound only five days after my first one and saw that nothing was there in the uterus. I was shocked because I had not passed any large tissue or experienced any significant pain. The doctors think that the baby simply dissolved into smaller pieces. I’m now finishing my first cycle since the event and all I wanna do is get pregnant again, but I have no idea how to handle the milestones without heightened panic attacks. I did not expect random things to trigger me as much as they still do.