My husband and I have been trying

My husband and I have been trying for almost 9 months to conceive. I was only 32 so we didn’t know why it was taking so long. Right after our first fertility appointment we conceived naturally. I thought it was fate. We found 7-8 weeks in that the fetal pole that had developed last week could no longer be seen in the ultrasound. I still remember almost every detail of that day. I try to tell myself that miscarriages are common but I’m still so devastated. I’m also so scared of trying again because what if this happens again.